wish you were here

minusthefights1 @ 2009-06-02T15:17:00

2009-06-02T22:18:09Z

What a fucking SHITTY DAY!!!!

minusthefights1 @ 2009-05-29T16:40:00

2009-05-29T23:45:36Z

I'm feeling a lot better than I was a couple days ago..probably all the drugs leaving my system ANYway..me and AJ went for a bike ride yesterday down to south mission and around the bay it wass amazing. today we're gonna ride to la jolla : ] whenever he puts down the xbox controller and gets the fuck up!

There are so many birthdays this weekend, it's annoying. And I feel bad that I don't have any money to do Brentons pub crawl with him..oh well. He won't even remember it haha..

heavyheartedness

2009-05-28T03:32:44Z

I've got an undying urge to move back to my parents house and change/fix everything that is wrong with my life. There are so many things I used to do or want to start doing, and I feel like I just can't pursue them while living here..

I totally neglect the gym or any type of exercise/outdoor activities, I never do anything artistic outside of work...I have this AMAZING camera that I rarely use, I'm always broke, I never hang out with my friends outside of this circle, I don't see my family enough, I don't read....EVER. My self esteem, strength, security, and confidence have been completely robbed, and to top it off, I've gained almost 30 pounds since last summer. I'm completely miserable...

I'm physically and mentally exhausted. I always feel like I don't have time for anything, yet there is absolutely nothing that is consuming my time. [job excluded]

I just want to turn my life around and become the person I was right before I fell into another relationship trap.

I love AJ like crazy, I just don't like who I am when I'm with him. And I feel like I can't change who I am, until I change my scenery.

UPdate.

2009-05-22T03:10:05Z

I've been extremely busy at work lately and it just makes me wanna sit down and do absolutely NOTHING when I get home. I can't even get myself to take a shower right now...but I have the weekend off YAA! Party @kate sessions aaaand Logan's all in one day.

Not that anyone cares but I'm really happy that Kris Allen won American Idol! Although Danny was the love of my life :[

Gonna be rollin' in the dough once I start this chalk menu job for Claire De Lune! And now I know I charged her waay too little haha...but oh well. It's my first side job so I guess it's cool.

Is it June 27th yet? I'm in the mood for EDC!

Tasha did my hair! But it's fading FAST :[

This is one of my favorite chalks I've done so far

That's all really..

minusthefights1 @ 2009-01-17T00:52:00

2009-01-17T08:57:54Z

gahhh im high as fuck right now and about 8 beers deep. going to beds gonna be a bitch. i hate fifa soccer for xbox. i loove moosehead and marlborough mediums. i need a new phone and a hair cut. i dont wanna work tomorrow at ALL. I fucking HATE working saturday. Wi wish Amechi didnt stop eating/buying sweets. I REALLY want a snickers ice cream right meow.

minusthefights1 @ 2009-01-13T19:01:00

2009-01-14T03:13:34Z

This weekend was pretty fun...got to hang out with Jess AND Natalie!! Ate BOMB shrimp and swordfish from Daniel's work and watched the Chargers lose terribly!

So Alison is gonna go work for Don at his new store in Carlsbad which will make me the head sign person at La Mesa :] Which I pretty much already am cuz I work the most hours...but she's worked for Trader Joe's for like 8 years...

Amechi is into weird things like meditating and healing people and stuff like that which I think is really cool, so i asked him to heal my ribs and he did and it actually worked. Well not completely...they're still sore. Before it used to hurt REALLY bad to lay down or try to get up from laying or sitting, and now it barely hurts at all. Trippy...

Anywho..

haha..i love daniel

Brenton got some crazy card from his sister who works for corporate amc...and fofr the rest of his life he gets into movies for FREE! PLUS he can bring 3 GUESTS...FOR FREE!! I wanna go see that movie about biggie smalls..

minusthefights1 @ 2009-01-08T21:16:00

2009-01-09T05:26:07Z

I'm almost done being poor. In two more weeks I should have substantial finances...but with my luck, who knows!
No snowboarding 'til my birthday cuz.......well for one, we both can't afford it. And two, my ribs are gonna take a while to heal. But until then, I've got a bottle of vicodin and a bottle of flexeril!

I got a tripod for christmas!

this is what AJ looked like in highschool...[green hair]

aaaand this is him now..

...i know...

minusthefights1 @ 2009-01-02T21:54:00

2009-01-03T05:57:21Z

Bruised: breast bone, rib cage, hip bones, neck, VAGINA bone.

New Years ruled......stayed in Troy's cabin and went snowboarding new years day. Completely ate SHIT twice. I'm hurtin' :[

minusthefights1 @ 2008-12-29T11:40:00

2008-12-29T19:45:59Z

JUST got back from Big Bear and I'm sore as FUCK. Snowboarding was amazing and it was beautiful out. We stayed in Troy's parents cabin and it was pretty sweet...you could just hop over the wall and snowboard down to the lift...I REALLY wish I had a cheap camera I could take places like that, but mine broke....so no pictures :[ The charger's game last night was the ONLY game of the season that I was actually into, but I couldn't keep my eyes open for the whole thing. They won though! wooo

Now I need to take AJ to work [sucks to be him]...and go to Bill's shop with Jill to get something pierced. But until then, I'm taking a nap.

Sometimes...I get bored...

2008-12-28T00:41:10Z

Okay. SO things have been pretty good lately, considering I'm sick : [ and DIRT POOR. I hate sinus infections, and even more, I hate paying for speeding tickets, traffic school, and medical bills which are completely unnecessary. On the plus side, I finally "live" here now. I'm paying rent next month [which is not so much of a plus] but at least I will have my giant, comfy, non lumpy bed again! I like AJ's bed but it's just not big enough for the both of us.

This weekend wasn't terrible considering I called in sick to work today and yesterday. Christmas was pretty good. I got a lap top, a tripod for my camera, an iPod adapter for my car...and AJ is taking me snowboarding tomorrow! Technically I'M taking HIM, but he's paying!

Tim's birthday was siiick. I only have a few pictures because I let Fred hold my camera all night...a lot of good THAT did.

Me, Tim, and Lauren

Tonyyyyy and Jon

Blake<3

mike<3<3

Daniel

me&joe

minusthefights1 @ 2008-07-12T17:57:00

2008-07-13T01:02:17Z

Last night was sooo retarded! Went to the Padre game with AJ, Jess, Bill...and everyone and had suuuuch a good time! I'll have pictures up later. I think the majority of my daily caloric intake comes from beer. I don't think I've ever been this happy in my life before...it's seriously fucking amazing. I hate the stupid way we are...<3

minusthefights1 @ 2008-07-07T20:43:00

2008-07-08T04:01:13Z

Last night was Daniel and Rob's birthday....way fun...
We ran out of beer pretty early, so Jenny and I went to the liquor store to get more, but when we cameback with PBR, everyone turned their fuckin' noses up....so Jenny and I each drank our own 12pack haha

some random guy in the alley took this picture

So Bill falls asleep ALL THE TIME...and this is what happens

this is my boyfriend by the way haha...and his sack

before that...Danny, Bill, Daniel and I had a pretend birthday party for Danny at the Silver Fox

I'm rediculously happy

minusthefights1 @ 2008-07-05T23:06:00

2008-07-06T06:07:35Z

So this was probably the best 4 day weekend ever.

And now I have a boyfriend?

: ]

yes

minusthefights1 @ 2008-07-01T17:18:00

2008-07-02T00:24:50Z

I'm not gonna see Jess until Monday!! : [

But I've got a 4 day weekend I'm STOKED about!!!

and these

2008-06-28T00:05:53Z

I did another chalkboard at work a few days ago..

minusthefights1 @ 2008-06-27T16:30:00

2008-06-27T23:43:58Z

Work was so amazing today...I love my job. [ 98% of the time ]

I had a really hard time saleeping last night for some reason, Jess and Bill went to bed early, so my boredom =

this is my room when it's CLEAN

I bought this orchid for jess because I threw up on her car one night

are living room is very boring

i have crabs

i got these at a thrift store in el cajon, and then when i was in prescott AZ i found ANOTHER one! it's on the book shelf : ]

I was going to scare Jess when she came out of the bathroom, but she wasn't scared

sometimes im gay

and that's all,.

Now here's where I ramble on about how I don't mind being single AT ALL. In fact, I love it. BUT, I'm getting really sick of having these crushes that last less than 2 days, and then I'm all of the sudden OVER IT. It's really annoying...but whatever. I've never been so happy in my life, ESPECIALLY being alone. But I absolutely love it. But i do need to stop comparing everyone to my ex-boyfriends. blehhhhh

im sick of going to my parents to do laundry : [

minusthefights1 @ 2008-06-26T21:08:00

2008-06-27T04:40:36Z

I've had a pretty good couple of days : ]
Went to the Del Mar Fair AGAIN last night with Jess, Bill, Danny, and Tim...waay fun!
Then I went swimming with Jamers and Jillybeans today...and then hung out with Erik for a bit.

Cartel was SO amazing

was a good night!

and today at Jamie and Greg's new FANCY AS FUCK apartment...

still love my life : ]

minusthefights1 @ 2008-06-23T13:55:00

2008-06-23T22:12:39Z

I had the best weekend ever. My family reunion was AMAZING! I love my dad's side of the family : ]

our hotel was waaaay nice, but it was hot as fuck

Dawni, me, Nate, Mandi, my sister Jamie, and Tyler

uh, yeah we drank a lot this weekend

tyler and jamie look like brother and sister here, it's crazy

i accidentally burnt my nephews leg with my cigarette : [ but he was ok

hahahaha look how fucked up me and jamie are

thats better, haha

my aunt cindy was the most drunk i think

see?

my mom gave her a tramp stamp haha

my aunt suzie? and my mama

my uncle dan rocks out on the harmonica, hes an old dinosaur :)

uncle mark and uncle joe

shes so happy when shes drunk lol

these pictures are obviously out of order

bought some cd's for the road : ]

do we look like sisters
?

my nephew trent and my sister tori

my niece katie, wearing my flip flops haha

the last night we were there my sister drank too much haha

mom had to put a towel over her cuz she wasnt wearing underwear and she was in a dress HAHAHA

im so glad you cant ell im hammered in all these pictures

thats my big gay cousin justin in the background, hes awesome<3

shes so cute!!!!!!!!!

i dont know whos little boy this was, but hes related to me somehow, and he was so cute!

no idea whats going on here

gina's hair looks like trina's beard hahaha

freakin cutest kids in the world

my cousin Gina and her autistic boy Joshy

thats about it

minusthefights1 @ 2008-06-18T22:50:00

2008-06-19T06:17:25Z

I took Cambria to the Del Mar Fair today : ]

AWWWW!!!!!

you HAVE to go see this bull in person, it is HUMONGOUS. over 3,000 lbs!!

and this horse was too

you seriously can't really tell from the pictures, but these two animals were rediculously LARGE

cute, i know

this girl freakin' LOVES capri sun

hehe

me and jamie call this "creep wheel" ... just look at it!!

that's all : ]

minusthefights1 @ 2008-06-17T07:28:00

2008-06-17T14:33:24Z

HULK SMASH!

whore

<3

I drank two bottles of champagne last night and wasn't even drunk :(

minusthefights1 @ 2008-06-14T15:54:00

2008-06-14T23:00:15Z

Hollywood was a bust. Partied too hard last night at AJ's, woke up and ate Broken Yolk + mamosas for breakfast, spent a few hours at Bill's ... I'm pooped. So I'm just chillin' with Jess watching Walk The Line <3 Unfortunately I don't have any pics from last night, but Jess does so I'll upload 'em later. Family Reunions in one week!

Terry should turn 21 every weekend cuz last night was amazing!

three posts in one day?! sorry : ]

2008-06-13T04:14:31Z

I made this for Jamie and Greg ... I didn't mean to make the fish look like he was smiling, but oh well

[ soft pastel on foam board ]

minusthefights1 @ 2008-06-12T19:24:00

2008-06-13T02:27:36Z

I found this in my mom's cabinet....what the fuck..hahahah

Dani's so cute sometimes : ]

minusthefights1 @ 2008-06-12T14:28:00

2008-06-12T21:39:33Z

SO, nothing is new. As usual...

Arizona was AMAZING <3
I didn't have my NEW camera while I was out there, so I didn't take very many pictures...
But look how rediculous he looks : )

Jess and I are going to Hollywood on Saturday...I don't know why, I've just never been...

minusthefights1 @ 2008-05-28T19:11:00

2008-05-29T02:13:13Z

Leaving tmorrow morning! I'm so excited : ]
Hopefully I'll have lots of pictures when I get back!

Jess is, the BEST roomate ever!!!! I love her!